The Day Before (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 30

It was the day before and only if I'd known

That it was the day before my disaster

How funny it is when everything seems normal

Then all of a sudden your whole life changes

We're never really prepared for the day that alters us

That way, we can't hold our breath

Or stand our ground

But it was the day before

And God! It it took me down!

There was fire and brimstone

And coal and smoke

I tried to hold my nose but it wasn't enough

This day was written in my destiny 

To make me who I am

And I wouldn't take it back

Because I would forfeit it all

It was the day before

And I wasn't ready for that fall!

But goodness gracious I'm glad that I tumbled

Because here I am to tell about it

And I can say it all was worth it

I needed to fall

I needed to stumble 

Disaster saved my life

And I am still here because of that moment

Thanks to the day before

For being my worst component

 

 

This Love (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 29

I'm definitely unsure

You're positively immature

And I don't see how this is going to mix

Plus, there's not much we can fix

You're a red light and I'm passing go

I'm a free flight and you're...I don't know

But somehow this love is real

When it probably should be sealed

We're dysfunctional 

Yet untouchable

But we wouldn't give it up for the world

I'll choose you as my guy...me your girl

But this can't be good for our health

But what do I do when you're worth my wealth?

Maybe that means I don't have much

But I still love the feel of your touch

This love sometimes may suck

But this love is us

 

 

Starving Hunger (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 28

I got drunk off failure

Hungover by life

But after coming face to face with porcelain

My stomach's clear

And I'm hungry for more

Life has handed me dirty cards

But I wiped them clean to start over

My gut is growling for triumph

My heart is beating for success

It's time for me to get out of this mess

I'm hungry for victory

I'm hungry for happiness

I'm hungry for life

 

70VE (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 26

I stare at the long dark hallway

Hoping a light will show up

I swallow hard

Clench my fists

And feel the sweat form on my face

One step after another I slowly go

For a second I close my eyes tightly 

Hoping this is the right choice

I try to be mindful of my surroundings 

But there's nothing to see

I'm all alone

With goosebumps on my skin

I'm more than halfway there

But I want to turn around

What's waiting for me?

I see a light just at the end

I stop before I step into the brightness

What if it's not there?

Take a deep breath...exhale

I walk into the light

A smile spreads across my face

Love was waiting for me all along

We're Here (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 21

Time passes and photos fade

But the memories are still there

None of us are still the same

But that one thing brings us here

Every year that goes by

We're reminded of the things that make us

No matter how much time flies

Or how many dawns turn into dusk

I plan on leaving my mark

On the concrete, in the sand

Because I was given a spark

Try and take it if you can

My fingerprints will be legendary

The sound of my voice is iconic

Remember my name, it'll be necessary

It'll echo with waves of sonic

So here we are at the same place

Searching for the same things

We all want them to remember our face

But we have no idea what life brings

I just know that someday they'll say, "she was here"

 

Come Inside (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 19

Come on inside

 It's pouring out

Where it's safe and warm

From that quiet storm

Where you don't have to worry

And no one's in a hurry

Just come inside to me

 

The sky is dark

The clouds are gray

Just step in for a while and stay

There's no need for words

For the day, let's be flightless birds

We don't have to go anywhere

Just come inside to me

 

Don't look out the window

The winds are roaring

And the raindrops are pouring

Stay with me a while

Don't send me down the lonely aisle

I promise you'll be fine right here

Just come inside to me

 

When the rain stops

The rainbow will show

Even after that promise me you won't go

Because the rain was an excuse to get you here

And I'm not willing to let you disappear

When you enter don't ever leave

Just come inside

 

 

Press Stardom (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 17

It's like everything we do is for everyone to see

We might as well just film it and make a movie

Put it in the cinemas in 2D and 3D

Because we can't get a moment of peace

They're like paparazzi gaping through the cracks of our home

Even with the lights off we're never fully alone

 So we put on our shiny smiles made out of chrome

And pull out the stitches when no one's looking, that was tightly sewn

Only because we're not allowed to crack

We can't take that chance unless they turn their backs

Why won't they all just go away, take their bags and pack?

Maybe then we can continue where we left, get back on track

Camera smiles and red carpet attire

Come on baby, let's sell it to the highest buyer

We made it this far, straight through the wire

Don't let them know we're burning in the fire

Because there's nothing more that they'll love than a juicy story

Let's make this look good no matter how messy and gory

Because pain is how they get their glory

Don't let us become their latest quarry

I got the inspiration for this poem through a random words generator that gave me the words "press" and "stardom". It seemed perfect since I'm also obsessed with Pop Culture. 

 

 

The Woods (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 16

Once upon a time

There was a girl who ran from her safe world

At the drop of a dime

She let her feet hit the ground

Never looked back, never made a sound

Into the woods

Miles away

Ran as fast as she could

Into another day

There were dragons and fire

But they didn't scare her at all

Ran into Prince Charming but he was just a liar

She was too far in for anyone to hear her call

But she wasn't one to waste a moment

Not one to wait to be saved

The world was her component

She never seemed to be fazed

Because she never was like the rest

Instead of going right, she turned left

So into the woods

Miles away

She found her refuge, she found her safety

Only because she stood her ground bravely

Out of the woods

She no longer had to run

The evil and pain was over and done

This is a story too true to be fiction

A bitter pill was her only prescription 

It set her free

And this girl lived happily ever after

I would know because this girl is me

Halfway Mark (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 15

Go ahead and take your space

Because here with me is not your place

Maybe I deserve better, but then again maybe I don't

Maybe you need to experience more, but maybe you won't

Here we are stuck in the middle with no one but us

If you leave now how do you expect me to ever trust?

But if it's space that you need, then go ahead

It's worse regretting than waking up in an empty bed

We made it exactly to the halfway mark of forever

Time ticking away just turned into never

And I'm sorry to say that you're all that I got

But I'm more sorry to say I hope it's everything you're hoping it's not

And I'm hoping to say "no" when you want to hear "yes"

That someday I'll want what I want now less

And you're aching for it more than ever

That you regret the unbreakable ties you severed

So I stand here alone at the halfway mark of forever

Time ticking away just turned into never...

Uninspired (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 14

Completely uninspired

Not really sure what I aspire

Draw inspiration from "here"

But the wheels aren't cranking or turning

I stare blankly, trying to think of something clever to say

Nothing comes to mind

The quotes don't ignite a spark

They don't hit a mark

So I sit and wait for something to come to me...

Waiting, waiting, waiting

Nothing.

Wanted to say something about a battle

But it all seems overused

So it looks like I got nothing

Wait a minute!

Hey! I just got inspired by being uninspired

I guess that's it for today...

Color Me Dead (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 13

Black

That's what you are to me

Blue

Is how you make me feel

Red

What a bright color to see whenever I'm around you

Pink

Light and lovely, a feeling that's rare

Green

I should feel rich when I'm around you but I always feel cheap

Purple

In your eyes I should be royalty but that's not how you treat me

 Gray

I've never felt so dull

 Brown

I'm worth the dirt on the ground to you so bury me in it

Go ahead and do it and get it over with

I won't put up a fight

Because black has always been my favorite color anyway

Cheers! (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 12

I'll do whatever it takes to get to you

Slit a throat, rob a soul, whatever I need to do

Because this burning desire just won't go away

And it's eating me inside day after day

I lust for your ending

Now I'm done with pretending

That it doesn't mean that much to me

Because even when I close my eyes it's you I see

This wanting inside

Will never subside

And this fascination

Just keeps me waiting

Some call it a dream, some say it's an obsession

I know I won't be happy until you're in my possession

My head's off my shoulders, my mind's enraptured

 I won't rest or sleep until it's you that I captured

Now I'm wishing on numbers and skeleton keys

And I spend everyday down on my knees

I'll keep on working until I'm buried in the dirt

Here's to hoping that one of these will work...

Cheers!

Their Eyes (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 11

They tell them to stay in a child's place

But their place is here with the rest of us

When it gets bad they say "turn your face"

But having to experience the world is a must

Maybe we should try to see it all from their eyes

Think wide open thoughts

With the purest of minds

Embrace all of the things that we once fought

Give them a chance to be themselves

Make their own choices, make their own dreams

Take these old ways and put them on shelves

And let them shine their own light to gleam

 

 

 

Self Expression (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 10

Growing up was hard knowing I was different

I was up and then I was down

But it only took a matter of seconds

I was a ticking time bomb that didn't make a sound

 

When I was 16 the doctor said

"You suffer from depression and anxiety"

For the first time I felt relieved

Now I had the answer to my inner rivalry

 

So I embraced my dark side

And put a couple of strings of light around it

Then called it "self expression"

That's when I knew it was as good as it gets

 

So I swallowed my little blue pill everyday of the week

And the marks on my arm let everyone know I was insane

I let them stare, talk, and laugh

After all, life is nothing but a fatal game

 

Now I ink my skin and travel the world

Because I learned that life is too cruel to not do what you please

I call it self expression

And I'm the owner of the master keys

Today is world mental health day. Don't forget to show some affection to those who need it most!

 

 

 

 

 

Perfectly Perfect (OctpoWriMo)-Day 6

I'm not good enough

But I'm perfectly perfect

I'm not accepted

But I'm good this way

I'll never measure up to them

But I'm as perfect as they come

My flaws are what makes me flawless

Someone told me it's perfect to be well rounded that way

There's a million things I would want to change

But then I'll be taking away pieces of me

And the last thing I want is to please the crowd

This is probably the most imperfect thing to admit out loud

I'm perfectly perfect the way that I am

Although it never feels that way

Sometimes I'm a queen

And sometimes I'm a peasant

In some ways it's better than being stuck in between

That way, I can only play for my own team

I think that's the thing that makes us perfectly perfect

Just being ourselves in all it's pain and glory

Who cares who likes it because no one really matters anyway

At least that's what I like to believe

So be perfectly perfect in all your flaws

And do whatever you want without needing a cause 

 

Australia (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 5

Remember last time it got too cold

And we flew across the world? 

They thought we were crazy

But you were my guy and I was your girl

We experienced new things 

And met new souls

And for the first time I felt like life was worth it

I was able to imagine us growing together, old

If this is aging

I would like to do it more often with you

I harvest every memory

Because you helped my dreams come true

Three different countries over the course of two weeks

It was the best change that ever happened to us

Dubai, Italy, and Australia used to seem untouchable

It was then we promised that traveling the world is a must

I used to think it all was impossible

That it would forever be a dream

I can't take all of the credit

It was like jumping out of a plane and forgetting to scream

I was never a fan of autumn until you came

It used to remind me of the end of happiness

But since you bought a one way ticket here

It's nothing but a cozy bed and bliss

 

 

 

 

Who I Am (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 4

Tell me when to go

So that way I'll know, if I should move or not

That is what you want

Isn't it?

To control me?

Make me feel smaller?

Well, I'm not one to mirror conformity

I've always believed it to be more of a lonely city

Rather than a community

Because it's built upon safe lies

I'd rather be a hated outcast

It's been suiting me just fine my whole life

Deep down I've always been a free spirit

Even though they've always ridiculed me for it

There's just some abuse you get used to

I'm a woman...oops!

I also have colored skin...sorry!

Someone should've told me to stay in my place

Oh, right, they did....

I'm too liberated to be held down

I'd rather be wrecked than safe and sound

Spit at me, curse my name

It won't make a difference anyway

Because I can't help but be the same

It's who I am...

I've been reawakened

And no I'm not mistaken

This is my revolution

Or maybe my revelation

Either way I'm taking the risk and being set free

I can't help it, it's who I am...

Waking Up Alive (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 3

I was hoping to wake up alive

Because all I did was indulge in you

I inject you into my veins like sugar in a needle

But all I can do is lie here

On my back

Staring at the ceiling with cracks in it

They said you would be sweet

They said you'd be kind

This was supposed to be easy

But it seems it was easier years ago

When I was younger

And this was new

The older it gets, the more I need

You're my favorite piece of candy

After taste and all...

Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up alive...

2 (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 2

There started out as two

And then one was created

That's the way we should be

Always two, never one, never alone

If threes a crowd, then two is complete

Maybe we'll meet on a one way street

There are many reasons why you're beautiful

But I'll give you two...

Your spirit

Your mind

That's all I'll ever need

Because that's all you'll ever be

It started as one

And now there's two

Maybe now that we're one

We can add another...three

Break Free (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 1

They never said

That adulthood would be this hard

Chains, barriers, brick walls...

It seemed fun when I was young

As a kid, I anxiously waited 

For the day

The hour

The minute

Then it came...

I grew my wings

And like a butterfly I had to fly away

No warning

No preperation for this transformation

It just happened

So here I am

Learning to break free

Break free?

Is this really freedom?

Because if it is

I may want to give it back...