Dawn

It's dawn

I hate going to sleep when it's daylight

But we always do

It's a sickness we have,

Me and you

Amongst other things 

We can't bear to speak

But the morning light is worst of all

But somehow it's where we always meet, 

Me and you

We live through the darkness

It's the source of our power

The moonlight supplies our solar energy

But this sickness is getting the best of me,

Me and you

We have much more to live for

Let's stop closing our eyes towards the sun

Because the darkness can't hold us forever

We're growing older by the second,

Me and you

Life (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 31)

Life is a journey

Take it one day at a time

I hate cliches 

But I guess it's true

We can't control everything

And the things we can

We have to learn to let go sometime

Most of life is luck

Very little is hard work

Being at the right place at the right time

Making the right decision

Even though you had no idea it was the "right" one

We punish for things we didn't cause

And celebrate things we don't deserve

But that's life

And it's all we have

Until we're done here

Life is a journey

Enjoy it

Live it

Take it

Cry it

Love it

Senses (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 30)

I can still feel you near

But I can't touch you

What such despair!

I can't see you anymore

And the tears blur my vision

Can't figure out what all this is for

I remember your smell

But now your scent is gone

And there's nothing left to tell

I can still hear your voice

It's in my head all the time

But I'm forced to do without it, I don't have a choice

I have the bitter taste of regret

Just sitting there on my tongue

But there's no going back, time is already set...

For The Better (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 29)

Nothing's the same

And I always fear change

When I'm not sure if it's for the better

I like routine

And you don't get what that means

So, I'm not sure it's for the better

Some things you want to end

While others you want to mend

God, I hope it's for the better

Maybe I'll like it

Or accept what I get

We'll see if it's for the better

My Favorite Poem (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 28)

Don't think I have a favorite poem

Because none of them can mirror me

I have to write my own

It's the only way I can get clean

For no one else understands it

No one else can ever write who I am

Nothing else can ever fit

So my favorite poem is whatever I come up with

It changes whenever I write something new

But I must say I still favor Blame It On The Moon

Blame It On The Moon was written by me last year for OctPoWriMo.

My Happy Ending (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 27)

I'm the boss

I have everything I've ever wanted

Most importantly, everything I need

It's not much to ask for

It's rather simple

That's my happy ending...

Simple? (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 26)

Was there a time when things were simple?

Or did I imagine it?

Simple was never part of the process

It's always harder than we remember

Process it in our minds to be something it's not

Remember that thing you thought was easy?

Not so simple when you try again

Easy doesn't exist

We just get over it

And when it's over, we forget...

The Best Mistake (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 25)

I was addicted to sadness

It was my favorite mistake

I embraced my inner madness

And it opened the gates

Locking myself alone

Was my favorite childhood pastime

Practicing a bitter tone

Developing anger I could call mine

And I may have been 5 years old

But I knew what I was doing

Sadness was the only thing I could hold

Something new inside was brewing

But it made me who I am

So, what are you going to do?

It opened up a flooded dam

My favorite mistake was missing you

 

The Best Corner (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 24)

I'll find the best corner at the party and live it up

Blue lights blinking on and off

I'll sit until you notice me

Won't leave until you notice me...

I'll look on and wish that I could be so free

I watch you laugh

But you don't notice me

Won't leave until you notice me

I'll talk to you and share some jokes

While the loud music plays

You finally noticed me

Won't leave until you notice me

 I'll make my way out the door

Simply because I know

Even though we spoke, you didn't notice me

You'll never notice me... 

Lies and Truth (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 22)

I'm a rebel at heart

I'm a timid soul

I love a good crowd

I love to be alone

Two lies and a truth

More like 3 truths and a lie

Which one is it?

Go ahead, take your time.

Over/Under Whelmed (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 21)

Over or under

There's no in between

I'm overwhelmed 

With my passions and dreams

My mind won't stop racing

The time moves too fast

My body won't stop pacing

How long will it last?

I'm underwhelmed by life

There's not much to it

It bores me by the night

So I just think and sit

Of new ways to make it happen

Don't know where I'm going

I can hear my brain laughing

Not sure what I'm sowing

For Specs Alexander...(To The Moon & Back)(OctPoWriMo2015-Day 20)

You may be older and don't run around like you used to

But I still love you to the moon and back

You may be bad and tear up things that's new

But I love you to the moon and back

And nothing will ever change that

You may not be feeling well these days

And we're not sure what exactly is wrong

But I'm sure you'll be okay

Because you've always been strong

I'll love you to the moon and back

You may only be 13 pounds but you're so much bigger to me

I'll love you to the moon and back

I promise I won't ever leave

Even when your time is limited, that day will come

But none of that will change a thing

Because the moon isn't far enough

Neither is the sun

So I'm rooting for you my Poodle Love

I mean it, you're the best dog in the world

Because no one comes close

Not a boy or any girl

You're the only one who can make my heart skip a beat

And I'm trying to keep this poem short, nice and sweet

But I don't think no one understands

Or gets it just like that

No matter what happens, I'll love you to the moon and back

And far beyond...

 

Dear One (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 19)

Dear old friends, you sort of took who I was

Sigh...

Dear the ones who had so much to say, my confidence shattered

Thanks

Dear anyone who would listen, I'm slowly getting it back

Watch

Dear the ones who helped, it's all appreciated

Truth

Dear who I am, it's all up to you

Go

 

Dancing With Tears (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 17)

1, 2, 3

1, 2, 3

I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

4, 5, 6

4,5,6

The water is giving me blurry sight

7,8,9

7, 8, 9

They fall onto my face

10, 11, 12

10, 11, 12

Partner, please give me some space

13, 14, 15

13, 14, 15

I don't think the count goes this high

16, 17, 18

16, 17, 18

I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

I'm twirling while I'm crying

I spin so fast they can't tell

My body moves so flawlessly

They don't know inside I'm in hell

So keep it going

1, 2, 3, 1

Let the movement keep flowing

2, 3, 4, 2

So they won't know I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

Shipwreck (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 16)

Do you see the shipwreck over there?

Do you see the shipwreck over there?

Everyone's staring

Everyone's staring

They won't help

But they won't cover their eyes either

Maybe someone should see the damage

Maybe someone should see the damage

But no one's moving

But no one's moving

Maybe because they can't provide the bandage

Maybe because they think it's hopeless

There's smiles on some faces

There's smiles on some faces

The rest of their expressions are blank

The rest of their expressions are blank

The crowd fills the empty spaces

Yet no one moves

Now the shipwreck is sinking

And not one person is blinking

It's going down

But it's not making a sound

And everyone pretends they didn't see

They all pretend the shipwreck isn't me

Today's prompt was a paradelle poem.

In My Wildest Dreams (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 15)

I'd get away from here

I'd go far away

I'd never look back

In my wildest dreams

I'd get a one way ticket

Stay away from here

Remain unapologetic

In my wildest dreams

I'd co-exist with myself

I'd do whatever I please

I'd be my own best friend

In my wildest dreams

I'd be okay with being alone

My heart would hold no fear

I wouldn't need any of you

In my wildest dreams

The world's the limit

Maybe even time and space

Nothing would stop me

In my wildest dreams

I'm fearless

I'm brave

I'm unforgettable 

In my wildest dreams

 

 

Yesterday or Tomorrow (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 14)

Stuck in the middle

Not sure where to go

Life can be fickle 

Not sure what to know

Because truth is always blurred

It's never black and white

My words are kind of slurred

I'm stuck in the middle tonight

Drunk in the middle of a bridge

That connects yesterday and tomorrow

I missed it by a smidge

But I don't want to go back to sorrow

So if I'm in between

Yesterday and tomorrow

Is today unseen? 

Some logic I could borrow

Because I'm not sure where I stand

Or what all of this means

It's like my feet are caught in quick sand

The distance is equal, or so it seems

Yesterday or tomorrow? 

Welcome To Adulthood (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 12)

Am I crazy for thinking there's more?

Because I feel like this can't be all

Could I find it if I knew what to look for?

Don't say there's nothing behind this wall

Everything contains something deeper

Fear would love to prove that theory wrong

Going the other route because it's cheaper

Hoping what I need won't pass me along

Impossible things happen all the time

"Just believe," they all say

Kinder things have happened to evil souls

Let's not talk about that today

My mind is a wandering battle

Never ending at any point

Over bearing and keeps me rattled

Promising my dreams and fears are joint

Quiet moments do me no good

Rationalization is my worst enemy

Sometimes I don't think as I should

Trying to find a permanent remedy

Understanding is the hardest

Volunteering my sanity

Wishing on stardust

Xanax helps my inhumanity 

Yelling my loudest won't do me any good

Zookeepers stand by to lock up this animal inside 

The prompt today was to create a poem with 26 lines using different letters of the alphabet. I decided to go in alphabetical order.

Surprise Me! (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 11)

I look in the mirror

"Surprise me," you say

But I don't know if I can

It never worked out this way

"Just give it a shot"

"Go ahead and try it"

Got to learn to take risks

Because you never know what you'll get

But I'm glad I listened

And put myself out there

Because sometimes you're right

And there's nothing to fear

Untamed Heart (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 10)

Ink me good

Or bad if you choose

I have an untamed heart

That will never lose

Don't go by guidelines

I don't believe in rules

I'm an untamed heart

I see from a different view

Don't want what you want

Don't care what you say

My heart is untamed

It'll always be this way

You tell me to grow up

But rebellion isn't a phase

My heart's not tamed

I was born a renegade

This is who I am

It's in my blood

My heart can't be tamed

That's how it always was