Dawn

It's dawn

I hate going to sleep when it's daylight

But we always do

It's a sickness we have,

Me and you

Amongst other things 

We can't bear to speak

But the morning light is worst of all

But somehow it's where we always meet, 

Me and you

We live through the darkness

It's the source of our power

The moonlight supplies our solar energy

But this sickness is getting the best of me,

Me and you

We have much more to live for

Let's stop closing our eyes towards the sun

Because the darkness can't hold us forever

We're growing older by the second,

Me and you

Science? (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 23)

Everything great starts with a fall

Just like everything big starts with something small

We're all just pieces of atoms

Stardust combined

And out comes this person, destined for something big

It's inside of us all, we just have to dig

We're all alive because of a cell

We all have futures no one can tell

Something hidden on the inside

Unfathomable things

We're nothing but gathered elements

Struggling to make the best of our presence

Over/Under Whelmed (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 21)

Over or under

There's no in between

I'm overwhelmed 

With my passions and dreams

My mind won't stop racing

The time moves too fast

My body won't stop pacing

How long will it last?

I'm underwhelmed by life

There's not much to it

It bores me by the night

So I just think and sit

Of new ways to make it happen

Don't know where I'm going

I can hear my brain laughing

Not sure what I'm sowing

For Specs Alexander...(To The Moon & Back)(OctPoWriMo2015-Day 20)

You may be older and don't run around like you used to

But I still love you to the moon and back

You may be bad and tear up things that's new

But I love you to the moon and back

And nothing will ever change that

You may not be feeling well these days

And we're not sure what exactly is wrong

But I'm sure you'll be okay

Because you've always been strong

I'll love you to the moon and back

You may only be 13 pounds but you're so much bigger to me

I'll love you to the moon and back

I promise I won't ever leave

Even when your time is limited, that day will come

But none of that will change a thing

Because the moon isn't far enough

Neither is the sun

So I'm rooting for you my Poodle Love

I mean it, you're the best dog in the world

Because no one comes close

Not a boy or any girl

You're the only one who can make my heart skip a beat

And I'm trying to keep this poem short, nice and sweet

But I don't think no one understands

Or gets it just like that

No matter what happens, I'll love you to the moon and back

And far beyond...

 

Dancing With Tears (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 17)

1, 2, 3

1, 2, 3

I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

4, 5, 6

4,5,6

The water is giving me blurry sight

7,8,9

7, 8, 9

They fall onto my face

10, 11, 12

10, 11, 12

Partner, please give me some space

13, 14, 15

13, 14, 15

I don't think the count goes this high

16, 17, 18

16, 17, 18

I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

I'm twirling while I'm crying

I spin so fast they can't tell

My body moves so flawlessly

They don't know inside I'm in hell

So keep it going

1, 2, 3, 1

Let the movement keep flowing

2, 3, 4, 2

So they won't know I'm dancing with tears in my eyes

Shipwreck (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 16)

Do you see the shipwreck over there?

Do you see the shipwreck over there?

Everyone's staring

Everyone's staring

They won't help

But they won't cover their eyes either

Maybe someone should see the damage

Maybe someone should see the damage

But no one's moving

But no one's moving

Maybe because they can't provide the bandage

Maybe because they think it's hopeless

There's smiles on some faces

There's smiles on some faces

The rest of their expressions are blank

The rest of their expressions are blank

The crowd fills the empty spaces

Yet no one moves

Now the shipwreck is sinking

And not one person is blinking

It's going down

But it's not making a sound

And everyone pretends they didn't see

They all pretend the shipwreck isn't me

Today's prompt was a paradelle poem.

Yesterday or Tomorrow (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 14)

Stuck in the middle

Not sure where to go

Life can be fickle 

Not sure what to know

Because truth is always blurred

It's never black and white

My words are kind of slurred

I'm stuck in the middle tonight

Drunk in the middle of a bridge

That connects yesterday and tomorrow

I missed it by a smidge

But I don't want to go back to sorrow

So if I'm in between

Yesterday and tomorrow

Is today unseen? 

Some logic I could borrow

Because I'm not sure where I stand

Or what all of this means

It's like my feet are caught in quick sand

The distance is equal, or so it seems

Yesterday or tomorrow? 

Welcome To Adulthood (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 12)

Am I crazy for thinking there's more?

Because I feel like this can't be all

Could I find it if I knew what to look for?

Don't say there's nothing behind this wall

Everything contains something deeper

Fear would love to prove that theory wrong

Going the other route because it's cheaper

Hoping what I need won't pass me along

Impossible things happen all the time

"Just believe," they all say

Kinder things have happened to evil souls

Let's not talk about that today

My mind is a wandering battle

Never ending at any point

Over bearing and keeps me rattled

Promising my dreams and fears are joint

Quiet moments do me no good

Rationalization is my worst enemy

Sometimes I don't think as I should

Trying to find a permanent remedy

Understanding is the hardest

Volunteering my sanity

Wishing on stardust

Xanax helps my inhumanity 

Yelling my loudest won't do me any good

Zookeepers stand by to lock up this animal inside 

The prompt today was to create a poem with 26 lines using different letters of the alphabet. I decided to go in alphabetical order.

Surprise Me! (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 11)

I look in the mirror

"Surprise me," you say

But I don't know if I can

It never worked out this way

"Just give it a shot"

"Go ahead and try it"

Got to learn to take risks

Because you never know what you'll get

But I'm glad I listened

And put myself out there

Because sometimes you're right

And there's nothing to fear

Untamed Heart (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 10)

Ink me good

Or bad if you choose

I have an untamed heart

That will never lose

Don't go by guidelines

I don't believe in rules

I'm an untamed heart

I see from a different view

Don't want what you want

Don't care what you say

My heart is untamed

It'll always be this way

You tell me to grow up

But rebellion isn't a phase

My heart's not tamed

I was born a renegade

This is who I am

It's in my blood

My heart can't be tamed

That's how it always was 

There's Fire In You... (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 9)

Sparks fly

I let them ignite

Firestorms were always my favorite

Water dries

And you can't see the wind

And sometimes the earth cracks beneath your feet

But fire burns

And it spreads throughout the night

Destroying anything that gets in it's way

It doesn't stop at any cost

I always admired that

Fire is everywhere

In your eyes

Your gut

Your heart

Birthed from nothing but just a tiny spark

Now it's a four alarm fire

And it can't be stopped

There's no running

No hiding

Just spread your arms and embrace it

To the millionth degree...

The prompt for today was the elements. 

Color Me Black (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 8)

Black is what I always was

So I decided to embrace it

Heartache, mystery and sophisticastion

They all can sum me up

Just a little bit

But I know what color I am, it's a perfect fit

I'm the color people stay away from

They can't read me

To them, I'm a loaded gun

But I'm not here to talk about weapons

Because the words I write are plenty

24 years and they still don't get me

They think this means I'm dark on the inside

Yet this may be true

But there's still a light that shines

Because black doesn't mean I'm bad

Just that I'm a mystery

I think that's what gets them mad

My shade is too dark to see through

And they're afraid of what they can't see

So they try to mold me

But I was never one for conformity

So color me bad or color me good

It doesn't matter, I'll still be misunderstood

The prompt was "Color Me Good" and to write about a color that sparks a memory or a feeling. I've always been black which is associated with mystery and sophistication. By the way, I do remember the 90's group Color Me Bad (as was referenced in the prompt). http://www.octpowrimo.com/

Some Things You Can't Tell (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 7)

They said to stay away

You'll be no good for each other

Neither of us listened that day

Now we wouldn't choose another 

They listed the reasons why

Aired out your dirty laundry

But I didn't bat an eye

That's when they came after me

But you kept still and stayed

And that made me smile

We stopped caring what they say

5 years...I think we lasted a while

Much longer than they thought

Turns out we fit well

They never found the heartache that they sought

I guess some things you just can't tell...

The prompt for today was the road less traveled. We had to think of a time we didn't listen to popular opinion and ended up thankful we didn't. 

Freedom (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 6)

Freedom 

Isn't

What I need 

It's more than a 

Necessity, I

Crave it

Want it

Need it all

The time until

It consumes my mind

I need

A change

Of life or

A life of change

Things can't stay the same

FREEDOM

Not Enough (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 5)

Screaming and fighting isn't enough to keep me away from you

Crying and hard feelings aren't strong enough to stop this feeling

Because it's always you I run to, no matter what you do

As much as I hate you, there's always a feeling of love I'm concealing

Heartbreak and discomfort doesn't stop our world from going round

Painful words and blows won't kill our moments

Because I hear so much even when you don't make a sound

When you're too angry to speak, you're never my opponent

Because this is what true love looks like

Even during the worst times

We fight

For us, for who we want to be, for who we are together...

The prompt was based off of a line from Taylor's Swift's song "You Are In Love". It's actually my favorite part of the song and I would always play it over and over which is why I found it funny to be the prompt for day 5. 

"You understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars

And why I've spent my whole life trying to put it into words"-Taylor Swift

It Was All A Dream (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 4)

I was there and so were you

We had it all and no one had to approve

I owned my life and you owned yours

It was magical and we were our own cure

Everything was where it belonged

I was happy and you came along

Not a thing was out of place

We owned it all, our time and space

But things are rarely what they seem

It was time to wake up, it was all a dream

I long for a world where that feeling can be real

But that dream hit me hard, I need time to heal

There needs to be a world with simple joy and magic

There's something in my gut telling me I have to have it

Because if I don't it can be the death of me

Because if I don't, all I'll ever have is a dream

Waiting...(OctPoWriMo2015-Day 3)

I'm sitting here waiting

Just waiting for something to happen

I showed up, I fought my way here

Did the opportunity disappear?

Did I blink and miss it?

I thought this was it, the perfect fit

"Showing up is half the battle"

That's what they always say

Show up and get on the saddle

Ride it for what it's worth

But it ain't much here

It's not much there...

I thought waiting may not be enough

But they say waiting makes you tough

It gives you thicker skin

But I learned it's not about the outside but what's within

And even sometimes that ain't enough

Because we have no say over this kind of stuff

Where we'll end up

Who we are

We can try to change it but there's no guarantee

No matter what happens there's always a fee

So go ahead, we can dream and dream

But some dreams will always be incomplete

 

I Just Need You To Hit Me (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 2)

It was dark outside

Not a light in sight

I just wanted you to hit me with all your might

Do something, say something

Don't be a mannequin

It was either sink or swim

I egged you on

I instigated as the night faded

I just needed you to hit me, make me jaded

I'm laughing at you

I'm twisting your arm

Just hit me, do me some harm

You finally did it

I acted like it didn't hurt, wiped the blood with my shirt

But this is foreplay for me because I always like to flirt

Before I get into it

Before I enjoy it

I just need you to hit me...

The inspiration came from watching a scene from one of my favorite movies, Fight Club (it's a tie between that and The Dark Knight for the #1 slot). I watched it on mute and came up with this.

There's Something In The Clouds Tonight... (OctPoWriMo2015-Day 1)

The sky is dark

But the night is light

There's something in the clouds tonight

Can't tell what it is

Or what I want out of life

But there's something in the clouds tonight

That makes me think I can be more

It makes me dream 'til my mind is sore

But I can't see past my initial sight

Still, there's something in the clouds tonight

The wind is getting icy

And the air is colder, dear

Sometimes I wish my ambitions would disappear

For some reason, this evening I want them to stay

Maybe I can keep them into the next day

I hope it's not gone before the morning light

Because I like whatever it is in the clouds tonight

Lust You (A Poem From Alex's POV + New Scene From RED)

I've actually been excited to create a poem from Alex's point of view for a while now. Alex is a very interesting character and I think he brings a fullness to RED. He's the antagonist in so many ways but he isn't all bad at the same time. Anyway, Alex gets himself into a pretty nasty situation (I won't give it up) and that's basically what this poem is about. Hope you enjoy it. And if you missed the last poem you can view it here.

I'm one second away from tearing off your clothes

Even though I know much better than this

It's the way your eyes look, the way your hair flows

I want to add you to my list

Isn't it okay if you act older than your age?

I mean, who would know if you don't tell?

Let's give a performance in my room, my bed will be the stage

 I'll buy whatever it is you're willing to sell

And I know this is supposed to be wrong

But I bite my lip and stare anyway

And to think it all started with a simple song

I think today just may be the day

That you forget about him

And let me win

I can't wait to hear the noise you make when I go in

God, this feels too good to be a sin

But you're more to me than just a body and lips

Although, I will admit I love the feel of your hips

When I'm holding you while you tighten your grip

I swear to God you take me on the best trip

I might've gone insane

Because this isn't right

But it's all pleasure, no pain

So I won't even fight

Well, well, well, there's your first taste of Alex Kinsley! Hope you enjoyed what you read. Here's the scene from RED that inspired this little piece. Only a few more weeks until RED's Valentine's Day release!

Alex: Control

It was a stupid decision but I make it anyway. Lust took over and I did something that I thought I could never do. I keep telling myself we’re not even a full eight years apart but it doesn’t make me feel any better. She’s not even eighteen. I knew we’d go this far I just pictured it happening a year from now. She tried so hard to ignore me the entire time we were together and that only made me want her more.

It was the song. Hearing her voice sing lyrics that hit so close to home didn’t help. It’s not just lust, I actually like her but I won’t be able to show it to anyone. I’m not worried too much about her boyfriend because they’re still young. They’re bound to break up eventually, right?

We didn’t speak for the entire car ride. She didn’t even say that she’ll see me later. I sit in my studio alone and roll a joint. God knows I need one. I play her track again and close my eyes as I inhale. I picture everything that happened in full detail from beginning to end. I can’t wait to see her again.