Waiting...(OctPoWriMo2015-Day 3)

I'm sitting here waiting

Just waiting for something to happen

I showed up, I fought my way here

Did the opportunity disappear?

Did I blink and miss it?

I thought this was it, the perfect fit

"Showing up is half the battle"

That's what they always say

Show up and get on the saddle

Ride it for what it's worth

But it ain't much here

It's not much there...

I thought waiting may not be enough

But they say waiting makes you tough

It gives you thicker skin

But I learned it's not about the outside but what's within

And even sometimes that ain't enough

Because we have no say over this kind of stuff

Where we'll end up

Who we are

We can try to change it but there's no guarantee

No matter what happens there's always a fee

So go ahead, we can dream and dream

But some dreams will always be incomplete

 

"Society" (OctPoWriMo2014)-Day 20

Waiting to hear the words that I want

Is almost like slowly sticking glass in your eyes

With every twitch and scream

I wait for the pain to subside 

But if you speak what I can't bear to hear

I wouldn't know where to take it from there

Because I waited for this too long

I don't know how much longer I can be strong

All good things come to those who wait

But I waited too long for you to determine my fate

I'm just a piece in your game board

What can I really do?

I want to speak out in fury

But I know that won't get the best of you

Because you control this cruel world

And I'm only just a girl

I have a dream and a pen

And I intend to use it

I have a voice and a sound

But I'm not sure if I'm fit

Because there are all these rules I'm supposed to follow

But in truth, I feel like I'm being swallowed

Being digested in a world of lies

Stuck in a place where everyone wears buttons for eyes

If I'm like me I can't make it

I wasn't made with the right ingredients

My formula didn't contain the right contents

I look how I look

I am what I am

But I'm doing the best that I can

All of this thinking gives me anxiety

Living in a place we call a "society"

It's Here and Now...

It's Here and Now...

It's official! My first novel, "A Tragic Heart" is here and now anyone in almost any part of the world can pick up a copy. I know it's been a while but I've been busy not only with the release of my first novel but also other business excursions. 

I've decided to stop sleeping on myself and do something about my dreams and goals. I never meant for this to sound sappy or mushy but I simply got tired of feeling "average". There are just times when you have to tell yourself "the time is here and now." 

Waiting can turn into "never" and "never" turns into "regret". I never want to feel the regret of not trying. I think as humans we always try to wait for the best times to start pursuing something but waiting can be deadly. Maybe there is no "right" time because there isn't enough time. 

Theoretically we only have about nine years of our lives to do what we want after factoring in the time we use for working and taking care of everything else, so why not start now? For one, I know that I need more than nine years to pursue everything that I envision for myself so I woke myself up and decided to go without waiting for the light to change. Lights are meant to direct traffic and I just want to be in my own lane on my own highway. No time for red or yellow lights...

Am I sure that I know what I'm doing? Do I know if I'm making a mistake? What if it all goes to hell and drags me along for the painful ride? So, what if it does? At least I can regret trying instead of regretting the "what ifs". The truth is, I don't know what I'm doing, I'm learning as I go. I don't know if I'm making a mistake but if I am, I'll learn from it. Life is all about learning and perfection is boring. Where's the excitement in getting it right all of the time? Shouldn't we live for the unexpected? Both bad and good? I think so...

Waiting is mediocrity, second guessing is crippling, and worrying is pointless. I never thought I would be the one saying go for the jump and pray that you take a leap but there comes a time that everyone must change who they are to get to where they are going. Hiding behind waiting or "that right time" is only going to fill you with regret and sorrow. You want to feel better about yourself? Just go for it! 

There will be criticism and you should take the constructive kind, but remain blinded to the negative. Someone will always have something to say and as long as you are happy with your decisions, that is all that matters. Someone will always disagree with you or try to argue their opinion but opinions are like........noses: everybody has one.

Now, of course this also means to use better judgment and to always be rational but also know that thinking for too long will only keep you in that one spot. Thinking only equals progress when you're taking action over your thoughts.

So, let's raise a glass to taking chances! Here's to here and now...

Included are links to the product of my "here and now":

http://www.amazon.com/S.-Elle-Cameron/e/B00FNI34X4

https://www.createspace.com/4217284